Yesterday I did my weekly reading which I always do on Facebook and Instagram. It’s a free oracle reading that I have been doing for years now. The first card I pulled yesterday apparently was my card because I can’t stop thinking about the message.

“Living and dying with your heart open, is truly a courageous act, as a life well lived is full of losses and tragedies, as well as great love, triumphs, and adventures. When you’re going through difficult times, when we most want to separate, the healing is often found in connection, not separation. When we close our heart and shut down, because the pain is too much, we often find ourselves more separate than before. The rose shows us how to open to the world, no matter what the day brings. “

The Rose Oracle by Rebecca Campbell

There have been times in my life where my heart and my views and everything about me expanded through utter heartbreak!!! Like a total different person, kinda expansion. The last few years and more recently, I have gone through “the break” that eventually will let more light in. It’s crazy because this has happened before so I know the expansion is coming and I’m just trying to stay on the wave. And the key to that is connection not separation.!!

Yesterday morning I woke up from horrible nightmares all night, same one over and over again. I knew the message and it hurt so bad. When we go through pain we generally without even consciously thinking about it try to make it stop. Food, alcohol, spend money, etc… anything to distract even for a moment. I didn’t even get time to do that.

My wild child jumped in bed with me and snuggled me tight (connection not separation). She could tell something was off and asked me what was wrong. When I told her I had a nightmare she said, “well lets talk about it, maybe if we talk about you can sleep better tomorrow”. I was blown away by her emotional intelligence and compassion. I didn’t want to talk about my dream because the heartbreak had to do with my children so I told her I would rather not. She hugged me tighter and said, “it must have been an extremely painful dream, I’m sorry mommy.” I couldn’t help it, the tears came out. AND in that moment I felt my heart expand through the extremes. Anyone else notice LOVE is not all rainbows and sunshine?

Connection, connection, connection….is the key to getting through and expanding through more difficult moments. And in the CRACK we feel from pain is the place more LOVE enters!!!

Journal Prompts for Anyone who is Expanding…..

Have you ever had a situation where your heart expanded during heartbreak?

How do you stay connected when you want to shut down?

How do you disconnect?

If it has been awhile, what have you learned from your “expansion”?

Do you think it is more courageous to feel and stay in connection or separate?

When you are internally aware of yourself you can choose how you want to react. Do you want to react with connection or separation.? And be nice to yourself if you choose separation. We are human, not perfect.

Happy Journaling,

Nichole